Room to Breathe.

Saw The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn this evening, the midnight showing to be exact. “Saga” is an understatement in my opinion. I read the books, I know how overly dramatic and totally ridiculous the last few were, but the movie was just outrageous to say the least.

I will admit Kristen Stewart has SIGNIFICANTLY improved her acting skills. I literally could not stand her in any move she was in, she usually plays the same character in everything. I was very surprised to find that she was not the worst of the lot. Rob Pattinson was just… uggghhh. Tolerable but still wanted to punch him in the face.TAYLOR LAUTNER! WHAT THE HELL DUDE?! Yes, take off your shirt, show the six pack, I will not object but for christ’s sake learn to act. Your soap opera style bullshit was a little too much to handle. All I took from it was, “Let me throw a hissy fit and turn into a wolf, oh just kidding I’m back, oh wait nothing has changed, I’M A WOLF AGAIN!” 

There was a scene that had me in tears with laughter. The werwolves all are talking and its like voices + echoing and their all yelling and being over dramatic about the baby and killing Bella. It was so poorly scripted and just flat out silly, trying to conceal your hysterical laughter from twihards is a challenge I wish upon no one. 

Wedding scene was nice, they brought back Iron and Wine’s Flightless Bird, American Mouth which I thought was really nice. I was sad they only used 2 seconds of Bruno Mars’ It Will Rain, that song could’ve been used in so many places and it’s such a good song. The sound track seemed to hold up to the others, but in the movie they basically got out all of the indie tracks in the beginning and stuck to the repetitive score throughout the rest of the Film. 

THEY REALLY MADE BELLA LOOK SICK. Who ever did that deserves a tremendous amount of praise because that was really good. The character they created out of the father is the best. He’s funny and believable. The sex scene was STUPID. He literally broke the bed… dude you aren’t that good, end of story. 

Overall, the movie sucked… hard. I will stick to red box rentals or netflix dvds only if I get around to it, other movies will come first. I will probably avoid the last one, unless my friend John drags me to it again, and in that case, I will be doing shots before hand. 

Setting: A bar in Durham, CT called “The Hitching Post” owned by my best friend’s (Ashley’s) Fiance’s (Jeff’s) Brother. (Mike… He’s not mentioned in this conversation but I thought it rude not to put his name.)

Me: Ashley, why is there a hunter green and off white faux finish on the walls? Can I offer my services to paint for free?

Ashley: Mikey can’t paint the bar.

Me: …He owns it no?

Ashley: yep.

Me: …. so??

Ashley: Oh well under the stary fabric on the ceiling is a whole bunch of Hell’s Angels Murals. 

Me: WHAT?! WE HAVE THOSE IN CONNECTICUT?! 

Ashley: Oh yeah, someone got stabbed here once.

Me: WHAT THE FUCK ASHLEY! I WATCH SONS OF ANARCHY I KNOW WHAT GOES ON! THIS IS WORSE THAN PEEPS!

Ashley: We drink for free…

Me: Let’s invest in some leather.

Jeff: I HAVE A MOTORCYCLE!

Ashley: It’s a Kawasaki, we’ll get raped. 

After 5 years with Stop and Shop and less than 6 months at a different branch I find my self suspended, for the first time. 

Yes, I have had my trouble with jobs i.e. Webster Bank, (that is another entry all on its own) but I did not deserve to be suspend even though I was totally expecting it today. 

Here is my story (maybe a bit bias, but who would give a personal account and not be a bit bias?),

A Female customer in her mid 50’s, blonde, wearing sunglasses approached the service desk. I noticed she got a little too close to the customer I was currently waiting on. She then proceeded to tell me her daughter’s name is Morgan, and it was pretty.

Red Flag. Look lady I’m currently doing a Western Union for someone else, tell me these things when it is your turn. So now I’m going to watch you like a hawk!

It’s her turn. She hands me a birthday card, and a $100 stop and shop gift card, and asks for a pack of Newports and asks if she can pay for them separately. Sure, why not, pay for your cancer sticks separately I don’t care.

I then ring in the birthday card, then ring up the gift card, that needs to be slid through our EFT machine to be activated. Me being the short woman I am ask the customer if she would slide the card through the machine like a credit card, she does so, then hands it back to me. She goes to slide her credit card that kept coming up, “contact issuer.” I ask for ID, because this woman is sketchy as hell. She doesn’t have it and says, let me go out to my car and get my ID and other card… yeah ok. 

I then proceed to void out the birthday card and gift card. The gift card came up with a message “void not found.” I try it again and again. I then try to cancel the order which it doesn’t allow me because #1 My CDH numbers don’t work for that and #2 there’s a gift card. You basically can’t do anything if there is a gift card in the order. So because of my line out the door and my need to get it out I miscellaneous tender the order, thinking my cash office person would be able to handle it when she came back from lunch. 

I was SOO wrong, she didn’t know how to fix it and wasn’t really sure what happened. The last 4 numbers on the receipt claiming the gift card to be active were different than the last 4 on the gift card I had in my possession. Betty, the lady in the cash office was convinced I got scammed. That the woman slid a different card than the one I handed her and knew the only way to get out of the order was to cash it out. I was confused because this woman WAS NOT smart enough to possibly no that OR execute it as well as she did! 

Luckily the security guard was there, so I watched the tape of the incident. The camera angles sucked, but it doesn’t look like she slid a different card, and she didn’t flip the card over to double check or anything. It was a matter of seconds. I’m almost certain it was a computer error. I’ve heard it happen before where only part of the barcode is scanned it thinks it’s a different card. On the other hand the full time CDH has been scammed in her other store. Nothing happened to her because she was scammed, me on the other hand, they are clearly just looking to piss me off. 

So my tray was off $100 which I was aware of and made Betty aware of. I get a call 2 hours after my shift from Betty telling me that she’d going to have to tell my store manager… pleasant, pleasant man (sarcasm). I was prepared to be suspended. 

Here is my problem with my suspension:

#1. YOU HAVE NO PROOF! none, we don’t know if I was scammed or if the computer was being a dick!

#2. There was NOTHING I could do. NOTHING! Yes, I could’ve unplugged the computer, but honestly who would think of that right away, and it might not even work! Once the Stop and Shop gift card is slid it’s active. 

#3. You didn’t even let me punch in to get yelled at. 

#4. You claimed no one told you I was taking Holden’s shift even though it’s been on the schedule since Friday, and you tried to blame me for it, NO!

#5. You stuck me in the cash office not on the clock, I could have you for that one. 

#6. Mr. Ruzza hated to suspend me, but did it anyway. Look you can tell me I’m appreciated and I do a lot of stuff for you guys, but you’re still suspending me!

#7. THIS WOULD’VE NEVER HAPPENED IN MY OLD STORE, which I have been trying to transfer back to for 2 months. You guys won’t let me transfer. 

So I am using this bullshit suspension to hopefully get my ass back to my old store. I’m tired of the bull shit, and I wasn’t appreciated there, but MAYBE they miss me and they can learn to appreciate? Whatever they won’t suspend me for STUPID STUFF I CAN’T CONTROL! 

I just returned from the midnight showing of the last installment in the Harry Potter series; Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2. Usually I come out of a movie with a rough idea as to if I liked it or not, it might take a few moments or so for me to really mull over what happens, and if it was ok.

The lights went on. I sat in silence. Looked at my friends. Started laughing. I still to this very moment have NOT A CLUE how I feel about this movie! 

Here is what I think went wrong:

We all had RIDICULOUSLY high expectations for this movie, IT’S THE LAST ONE… EVER! So those expectations are totally warranted, but lets face it David Yates not the best director in my opinion, and I think he knew everyone was expecting the world, and he was just going to do his best, and do it his way, which is completely fair. But kind of crappy… and make you laugh at parts that were suppose to be serious… just saying.

I mean there are scenes I am still playing back in my head and going, “WHY?!” People outside kept asking me what I thought all I could manage was, “asjkjeijds?!” and throw my hands in the air! I don’t want to give anything away, seeing as it just came out, but seriously?! 

I grew up with these damn books and movies, I WAS 10 WHEN THE FIRST BOOK CAME OUT! Now before HP7, WE TAILGATED! I was buzzed off of Magic Hat and Slytherine shots (Kahlua, Creme de Menthe, Vodka, fucking awesome!) so for an ending not so epic is a bit disappointing. 

There WERE good parts.

I’ve never been so excited a kiss scene like Hermione and Ron, I mean it only took them 4 years. I also think Neville’s scene at the end did him justice. There were some funny lines to remind you they are still kids, and Snape made me cry. I thought I would be balling my eyes out the whole movie, and just Snape made me cry. 

So all in all I think I’m going to have to see it again… even though I really don’t know if I want to. I’m just not too sure. 

“Once upon a time I was falling in love, now I’m only falling apart.” is exactly how I feel about the Twilight series.

Today they released the song list on the “Eclipse” sound track. Everything on it is epic, Band of Horses, Sia, Muse, they basically went all out for this one. But it put me in a bit of a tizzy, it shouldn’t have, but it did. Right now, I feel like that kid who loved a punk band before they went main stream, and now everybody also loves that punk band, but you we’re first!

I fell in love with the books. Stephanie Meyers isn’t the best writer, actually her writing style is kind of awful, but I wanted to get back into reading and a friend of mine suggested Twilight. It was extremely far fetched, but the whole “forbidden love” theme brought out the little hopeless romantic I have stored away somewhere. When the movies were about to come out I was excited, I mean, the book was basically a script it self, she had everything described to a T how could you fuck it up?

The answer is by making the movie into a collectors item. There is Twilight everything out there, and instead of making a movie that appeals to everyone or at least trying to appeal to everyone, they made it so teenage girls could gush over something besides the Jonas Brothers. 

There were numerous opportunities to make that movie, along with New Moon, great. Cinematography could have been amazing. Free range with camera angles, and shots, I just don’t understand. You can tell in Twilight they were, at first, trying for the Indie film feel. The contrast in colors and light from Phoenix to Forks was awesome. The bright greens and sunshine, to a dismal gray. But then they kind of forgot half way through the movie. Nothing is fully described, and the scene in the ballet studio could’ve had so many more drastic camera angles, and less shots of Edward Cullen leaping about. That scene should have been about Bella being scared for her life, and the pain she feels. I felt nothing, I was actually kind of confused.

The point I am trying to make is that the soundtracks they are making are far superior to the movies. In my opinion, soundtracks make the movie. If you have the wrong song or score in a scene it kills the feel of the movie. In the Twilight series, its the other way around. The movie is killing my music. I cannot listen to some Muse songs without asking, “I wonder how this one will be used in the next Twilight movie?” I can’t listen to some Mutemath or Iron and Wine without sighing, because I use to love that song, now Bella and Edward are dancing to it! It’s just fustrating that a bunch of 15 year old girls will claim they love Band of Horses, because they have one song on their Itunes library from the Eclipse sound track!

I have this image of a poster of Vampire Weekend’s Contra right next to Hannah Montana’s Best of Both Worlds. It haunts me.

So instead of my punk band, its my indie band, and I’ll admit I probably didn’t like them first and I’m not going to stop loving my music, let’s just hope they use an original song for the scene when they make the demon baby. If they don’t…I might die.

So I fell in love, I already fell apart, and there’s defiantly nothing I can say or do to stop this total “Eclipse” of everybody’s hearts. But I needed to vent.

Dear friend,

Words cannot describe how horrible I feel. I barely know you, but I’m trying to understand what you are going through. Just when things were looking up, the world decided to fuck you over, and I’m sorry that the world is going to be cruel like that. I think that me writing this is helping me vent my frustration and anger, I could only imagine yours.  It’s cliche but, I believe there is a reason for everything. It may not be clear now, but some day maybe you’ll understand why this is happening. Or maybe not I could be wrong. Get fixed, Feel better, Go back. Do not give up what you have worked so hard for, otherwise everything you have sacrificed will be worthless. You may not read this, but I hope everything works out for the better.

A friend.

After numerous hours (135 1/2 to be exact, no lie), of ridiculous transcribing and just awful shit work for my old internship at Palace, I got credited in Joey Pantoliano’s movie.  (http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0001592/ My Dad knows him as Guido from risky buisness, but he was also Cypher in the matrix)

I shouldn’t be as happy as I am but, it’s just awesome.  Seeing the raw footage over a year ago turn into a movie that has won awards is just amazing.

Ok so the movie is called “No Kidding, Me 2” Its a Documentary about mental illness and how it affects the lives of 6 people and their families. Joey Pants himself suffers from bipolar disorder and is a recovering drug addict. to see a trailer http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSfntKqtsJY CLICK IT! NOW!

The movie is set out on April 27th 2010, and has already won Best Documentary at the Hoboken Film Festival in 2009. So I got to work on a great movie, that will hopefully make people more aware of mental illness and it’s affects, and was credited as post production assistant.

I received this Email around 2am this morning from a fellow classmate of mine back at Gibbs. Here’s some Back story. I belong to a google group thats just the students from Gibbs with my major. The kid who wrote this, Rody, is responding to a former post on our message board about an idea a female classmate, Amy, had about filming a documentary on the topic of homlessness. She asked if anyone wanted to help her shoot it or had any ideas. Rody, replied with this epic tale.

Note: This is EXACTLY how it was written, I didn’t change anything. And this went to our professors too.

“You should definitely do a portion on crimes committed by the more
Fierce inhabitants of the streets. In my city (Norwalk) a lot of crimes are committed by the homeless
Population. Even a friend of mine, and seriously it’s a friend cuz even I’m not that stupid, although i was with him. When to south norwalk at 3 am to try to find some weed. Now I’m sure that normally pretty possible at earlier hours, althought the quality would likely be poor, but at 3 am you’re Just asking for it. So he pulled up to the corner store adjacent to the shelter. And out there is where all the homeless people who couldn’t get into the shelter, sleep or hangout for the night. First he tries to get me to get out the car and go as where the weed at? And I’m like no frackin way am I going over there. Obviously you should never leave your car if your not resourceful enough to find your pot in any other way. So brilliant as he is he pulls off onto a side road across the street while stupidly and cinematically stating “Fine! I’ll just do myself. I’ll do everything myself. You can’t even Just walk out of the car and go ask someone a simple question. Ten minutes later I’m wondering where the hell he is, so I get out of the car and slowly walk to the corner to peak around the fence. Then he appears There incouraging me
To get back to the car while beggin over his shoulder “nah please don’t shoot me man. I’m leaving.”. So I get back to the, he comes in and he’s in freak out Mode. Races off wondering if he should call the cops while me and my other friends are all agreeing that he is a turbo Idiot. He says he walked up and asked, a full black suited man with a half mask, lifted his hand in his Jacket and told him to run his pockets. Then made him turn around and walk his ass to the car without turning back to look at him or he’ll be shot. Like this kid is a real dumbass. Anybody with a
Jacket at 3 am in sono can rob you if they feel like it, or your stupid enough to believe that a homeless person could afford to have a gun besides
Getting lucky and find a used piece.  I know, don’t tell Ms. Prince there are
Mad run-one in this biatch. So I convince mr. Genius that he should call the cops, and he takes me up on it, but I meant in the morning. Obviously turbo retard had his phone stolen just now, but after being so against it initially, he is now adamantly raging about informing the police. Do what does he do, brilliant as he is he places my friend on the scene with him, by using her phone. The cops demand to him that he stop where he is, and an officer will come assist him. We’re all already stoned and none if want to spend an hour talkin to pigs trying to back up our stupid ass friend that pretty much deserved it. So we yammer at him to bring us back toniite vehicles.  He is still on the phone with the officer who is Now pretty much going off on him. Cuz he was dumb enough to tell the cop that he was drivin his car after getting lost in south Norwalk somehow.  And that’s why he chose the darkest scariest an stupidest corner in all of Norwalk to ask for directions. All this couldve been avoided if a) he weren’t so stupid from smoking so much pot, and being overall stupid in general b) he wouldve listened to us c) he didn’t call from our friends cell and d) he waited to call from his house, even though there’s no way the police will actually give
A flying frack about someone so dumb as to even put themselves in that scenario. So we leave, while he’s getting sunned on my friends phone, and we leave without her taking it. The Cops come to his house, and announce their suspicion at the obviousness of his real intentions to
Procure drugs as such is the only logical reasoning to be in that area at that time of night they ask about the phone, and he claims
A friend left it in there earlier. So in the end I think we can all agree that the average homeless person is smarter
Than most of your friendly wiltonian pothead neighbors. But we’re off topic here. The point is that crimes are a definite side effect of homelessness. All types of people can end up theree for different reasons, and need to pursue those endeavour regardless of their living situation by comitting crimes   .  Products of their enviroment, case the enviroment to produce the conditions that created the enviroment to start with. But im always willing to help, just gotta find into my schedule.  As for cameras, dave just got a
Sweet nee
Baby and I’m getting an upgraded version of the
One Gibbs Norwalk had. Hey, who got their hands on that thing anyway? I’m sure a staff full of film-makers didn’t
Let a group of corporate
Bloodsuckers to claim a piece of art-making brilliance go to waste by makin bloodsucking training videos and cheasy pop culture advertisements. So
Fess up people, who got it? But yes when’s this thang going down?
I’m there, you could def use
Some protection that knows
The area if you dare film in Norwalk. But we’d prolly just
Get our equipment stolen. It’d be sweet if you filmed s homeless house in a rich district if one existed. Shoot scenes with the inhabitants in hand me
Down polos and golfing shorts, with sweaters draped over their shoulders complaining about how today’s bubbly isn’t bubbly enough, and how the caviar tastes Raw.”